Monday, February 23, 2015

I Aint Got No Type

Good evening everyone!

I know this is a little late than my usual, but it's still Monday :)  Plus I'm on that Tony The Tiger high because -- NO SCHOOL TOMORROW!  This mama is staying home, sweat pants/no bra, and hoping it snows!

I'm sure I've stated this before, but I don't have a lot of "friends" and  I'm okay with that.  I like my circle small.  My personality tends to clash with others a lot & I prefer to save myself the drama/stress.  Plus, it's nearly impossible to be friends with too many females.  OH. MY. GOSH.  Females are so feisty, sassy, two-faced, bitchy... [don't nobody got time for that].

The stories of my failed friendships are always similar to the ones pertaining to my past love life.  I've had friends randomly stop talking to me, didn't like what I had to say, slept with my ex [she broke the girl code], chose a guy over me, butt-hurt because I didn't come hang every time I was invited, and snitched on me [on more than one occasion].

Holy chet, I think everything I listed is actually something a guy has done to me...  [mind. blown.]

Well, after listing all of that it's pretty obvious that I didn't and don't need those people in my life.

So it crossed my mind as I continued to scroll...  how I dislike a lot of people.  I look at my list of "Friends" and think "WHY are they even on that list!?" 
I think the word "friend" is used too loosely.  It's almost as bad as the word "love".  You have your best friend(s), your close friend(s), friend(s), and acquaintances.  I believe the word friend and acquaintance are often confused.

Oh snap!  I almost forgot to mention:  fair-weather-friends.  Those are the ones who come around only when it's convenient or it benefits them.  You won't hear from them too often until: they need to borrow your car, they need you to spot them some cash and they'll "pay you back" [sike], they need a ride, they need help building shit, or they need a place to stay, etc.  Of course after you've preceded to be a good friend, they begin to avoid you. (If my family is reading this -- THIS is why I don't like to be nice.  There are too many shady ass people in this world... Or town...)

It gets better.  When you're married/in a relationship and you start hanging out with the same group of people all the time.  It's like you have to do everything together and spend as much time as possible together... [I did not sign up for this shit]

In my circle: 

I have my best friends. 

1 - he even gets to play the role of my husband.  He listens to me bitch about my day or vent about him - [or just switch those words around] and then we get to bump uglies [bwahahaha]

2- we've been friends for 7-8 years!  [I think that's my longest relationship I've ever had - period].  She ended up moving, but that hasn't changed anything; we always pick up right where we left off.  I rather have more friends like her in my life.  Speaking of -- today, with the help of handy dandy technology, I got to hear her baby's heartbeat <3  That distinct sound just made me fall in love [I had to pull the E brake on that baby fever shit]. 

I have my close friends.

They have to deal with me on a regular basis and listen to my random/outrageous thoughts or comments.  Honestly, I think they keep me around for pure entertainment [who that bitch]

In case you didn't know, I'm pretty fu*kin funny.

As always, I have my family.

They made me who I am [I'm not sure if that's a good or bad thing].  So if you ever want to blame anyone for my behavior -- helluuuur fam

I'm one lucky lady :)


Monday, February 16, 2015

Eenie Meenie Miney Mo


Tons of FYI's: 
--Happy 50th Post :) and
--Happy 'belated' Valentine's Day; hopefully it was sweet/fun :)
--Not only was it V-Day, but also my 2 Year anniversary with my sexy hubby :)

So while a lot of you are at home today, nice & warm, due to the holiday... I'm at work [booooooo!] for a while ;)

Anyways, due to hitting my 50th Post today let's talk about:

Step Brothers
Pitch Perfect [I can't wait for part 2]
White Chicks
Twilight [I'm a nerd]
The Notebook
A Walk to Remember
Finding Nemo
Identity Thief
The Heat
Step Up [helluuuur Channing]
Love Me Like You Do - Ellie Goulding
All Of Me - John Legend
Fancy - Iggy Azalea
I Would Do Anything For Love - Meatloaf [taking it back old school]
Blank Space - Taylor Swift
Thinking Out Loud - Ed Sheeran
Wicked Games - The Weeknd
Marilyn - G-Eazy
Me & You - Cassie
Let's Get Lost - G-Eazy
TV Shows:
How To Get Away With Murder
The 100
The Vampire Diaries
The Originals
New Girl
Once Upon A Time
The Blacklist

Food: [this one was tough, plus I'm starving]
Chicken Alfredo
Lasagna Fritta
Arroz Con Pollo
Lumpia [made by my mama]
Tinola [made by my mama]
Sinigang [made by my mama]
Rusty's Pizza :)
Buffalo Chicken Dip [when I make it]
Lemon & Herb Chicken
Zuppa Toscana [when my sis makes it]
My Posts:

I didn't realize it was this difficult trying to find the top 10 of my faves [haha the struggle is real].

On a more serious note, while I'm on the topic of Favorites...

If you have more than one child in your family then you know what I'm talking about.  I'm sure the word has come up at least once or twice.  Growing up I heard it a lot - Actually, I STILL do.  I guess in every family there's always a "favorite".  In my family, I'M usually accused of being my Dad's favorite.  However, try telling my Mom that my baby brother is her favorite and World War III will begin.

Why the accusation?

1.) I'm the baby girl
2.) I'm also amazing, duh. 
3.) And... I don't know...

I guess that's something my siblings would have to explain [this is the part where my siblings leave a comment since they READ my blog!].  The process never really makes sense in any situation; your parents' are the ones who supposedly have a favorite, yet you would blame the alleged favorite child..?  [haters gonna hate lol]

So since I was constantly berated for being a "favorite" growing up, I now have this constant, nagging phobia NOT to have any favorites when it comes to my boys.  I have to remember that when I do one thing for my newbie, that I do the same or something similar for my little big man.  For me, it's as petty as making sure if I upload a picture of my newbie that I also upload a picture of my little big man; to make life easier - take a picture of them TOGETHER

Yes, I'm that ridiculous.

When I had my little big man, I didn't know all the stuff about babies.  I never saved a chunk of his hair [which I still find that tradition weird as hell] as a keepsake after his first haircut, throwing an over-the-top party for turning a year old, making a mold of his hand/foot print, or investing in a baby book.  I was more focused on learning to grow up at the speed of light [which I'm still learning].  However, I did get lucky though; my sister made me an adorable scrapbook of my little big man for his first year.  I treat it as my baby book for him.

Sooo this happened...

I remember the conversation so clearly:  We were shopping at Wal-Mart for the thousandth time that week and we came across a baby book and a kit to mold the baby's hand/foot when they're born.  I just kept walking along when my husband stops and says "Hey babe! We should get this" and instantly I have this guilty knot growing in my gut.  I purposely tried to avoid those things.  Why?  I have this rule [?] burned into my mind that since I didn't do it for my little big man, then there was no reason to start now.  It wouldn't be fair


When you have more than one child it's always some kind of circus act trying to balance out everything so that it's FAIR.  I'm just glad that there's such a huge age gap that I only have to hear it from one of them - for now.  My Dad STILL tries to make sure everything he does for each one of us [there's so many] is fair.  We're all over the age of 20 and some of us [NOT mestill bitch about what the other one got [which leaves me no hope, grrrrreat].  It's a mad house!  Right now for me, it's not really a struggle - if that's what you want to call it.  I can only imagine what it was like for my parents.  Now, not only do they still try to keep up with us, but now they have to factor in all the grandchildren [tee hee]

Not only do I worry about ME showing favoritism; I have to worry about OTHER people showing favoritism!  I highly... [I can't reiterate enough] HIGHLY dislike when other people have favorites when it comes to my kids.  It goes without saying.  It's more than a pet peeve - it actually hurts my feelings.  They're BOTH my babies and mean the world to me; so I guess I don't understand where the disconnect happens when other people come into the picture.  My little big man notices.  He's only 9, but you'd be surprised to hear some of the things he repeats or talks about.  So it kind of sucks when you have to explain why everyone did something for his brother, but "forgot" him.  Obviously birthdays are a whole different ball game.   

There are some instances where my newbie requires a little more attention - or maintenance.  I mean he still is a baby!  However, sometimes my little big man doesn't really grasp the concept and wonders why we don't make our newbie do homework...

"kids, they say the darndest things" lol


Wednesday, February 11, 2015

The D Word

Well good morning.

Do I have your attention now?

Lately, I've been going through some personal struggles which inspired me to share my opinion.  I know the norm would be me spilling some juicy Details - but today I'm rather vague.  I've been inspired to talk about a not-so-great topic; the D Word [dun dun dunnnnn!] - Divorce.

FYI: This post does *NOT* pertain to my personal life [do. not. panic.]

Facebook, the place where people feel it's the place to air their Dirty laundry.  So of course it's normal to read things you probably have no business reading. 

"It's my page, so I'll post what I want!"

Yet, as true as that is - it Doesn't mean you should share EVERYTHING.  I'm guilty of Doing so in the past.  Now I try to keep it to a minimum of vague song lyrics or quotes when I'm feeling blue [hahahaha]  However, I know that urge; when someone Does something wrong to you that you just want to put them on blast as quickly as the blow they Delivered to you.  I remember that feeling of rage; when you want to spill all their Dirty secrets and humiliate whoever pissed you off.  Then post all the screen shots possible as proof or validation for your actions.

I've been there, Done that.  I'm vengeful.  I'm hot-tempered.  I'm impulsive.  It's also really immature and petty.

"It's just Facebook"

#Amen.  #Preach.  #Truth.  [whatever other word you can hashtag]

When you're hurt, sometimes the normal reaction is to lash out.  You know when they say, "misery loves company"?  It's true.

I know I sound like I'm getting a little side-tracked; be patient, I'm getting to my point.  So what's the cause to you lashing out? 

Someone could of:
1.) Broke Your Heart,
2.) Lied to You,
3.) Cheated,
4.) Insulted You

And the beat list goes on.  Let's go with scenario numero tres; that one is always so popular.  So he/she cheated on you and your emotions are running high.  You go from shock to hurt to anger to confusion to numb.  Yet, in the end you stick around and take him/her back [hoe Don't Do it].  That never makes sense to me.  Cheating is a Deal-breaker!  I Don't care if you're married or are bf/gf - it's WRONG

When do you throw in the towel and say ENOUGH

Divorce is so common now.  It's like Married today, Divorced tomorrow.  Why?  Because it's so easy to quit instead of working through your problems.  It's just as bad as ignoring your problems and hoping they just go away.  Everyone's always looking for the easy way out.  In this generation people get Divorced over stupid shit; having to Deploy [that comes with the military lifestyle] or they just changed their mind [it's a little late for cold feet], or because you talked about a family member [can't we all just get a long]. 

Don't get me wrong, I think in some situations it's necessary; like cheating or abuse. 

"Maybe He'll Change..." [or She]

Sweetie, when pigs fly out of my ass.  Change comes from within.  You shouldn't have to try and change anyone; they have to want to change their attitude/ways.  Plus, infidelity isn't something you can fix - that bond is BROKEN.

All that time/energy you use creeping through their phone, trolling their social media pages, etc...  If people would put as much energy into working things out or talking things out, things could would be way less complicated.  As cheesy as it sounds - put in 100%.  If you're having issues and can't resolve it between the two of you, they Do have Marriage Counselors.

I never want to be apart of that statistic.  Honestly, when I'm at my boiling point the thought has crossed my mind a time or two.  I couldn't see myself EVER acting on it.  My parents are still together and my hubby's parents are still together.  I idolize that type of relationship; I want to be able to say we've been in Love for over 30 years and still going strong [yuck, tee hee].  My hubby and I Don't believe in Divorce; if we have a problem - we will work together and fix whatever it is.  So that option is never on the table.  We made a vow and we intend to keep it.

So if I were asked where I see myself in a year or two, my response would be with my best friend.  I married my best friend [BFF].  Forever is a long time, but I'm looking forward to it.


Monday, February 2, 2015

I Wanna Be Like Mike

Helluuuur my dears!

Before I get started, I just want to throw it out there that I have TWO MORE DAYS until my birfffday!!! [hey girl heyyy!]

Speaking of growing up...

What do you want to be when you grow up?

Shit.  Is there an age cut off for when you're supposed to figure this out???  I will be 26 and I STILL don't know what I want to do with myself.  My ambitions have varied through out the years:

1.) From age 4-12, I wanted to be a fashion model.  Hmm...  Being I have the same chest size as my 1 year old and I'm pretty much the life-size version of a chode; things didn't work out for me.

2.)  From 13-15, I wanted to be a cosmetologist.

3.)  From 16-?

I guess that's where all my ambitions went out the window or I just have the worst memory.  When you hear the age 16 you think of "Sweet 16" and all that other glitter and bullshit.  Obviously, 16 was def not my sweetest.

I graduated high school and that was it.  To me that was a huge achievement.  How often do you hear about a young girl who was pregnant in high school and she still managed to graduate [LIKE A BOSS!]?  Not too often.  Around here people made it sound like being pregnant meant you were stupid or something.  I would make Honor Roll or Principal's List and people would react like "omg! You're pregnant and you got better grades than me?!Hoe, don't do it.  I wanted the experience of going off to a college and living in a dorm, etc.  It's probably not all that great - but if you read it correctly, I said "experience".  At the time I was satisfied with "Yay!  No more school ever again!"  I was wrong -- when you have kid(s) it's like going to school all over again!  [have I ever mentioned how much I dislike math!?

Honestly, I feel disappointed with myself that I don't know what I want to do with my life; it's so unfulfilling.  I wish I would of taken it more seriously when I was still in high school and actually figured out what I wanted to do with myself; maybe pushed myself a little harder.  I like what I do now [not necessarily the people], but that as a career???  Like Mr. Feeny I'm on the fence [ta ha].  But I am very thankful I have a good job.

Lately, I started to dwell on the topic more than usual [damn you trivia crack].  Seriously though - if you have not played that game you're probably better off; who ever named that game was not joking.  If there is an intervention...  WHO SHE BE WITH!? [in my B.I.G. voice lmao]  That wasn't my only influence; even working on a research project with my little big man made me think about what I want to do with myself.

I've put some hard thinking into this so feel free to tell me what you think:

1.)  I can honestly dig working at a fashion magazine.  I can dress how I want and dye my hair the same as the damn rainbow and not have to worry about anything. 

2.)  I love watching crime fighting/drama type of shows/movies; so maybe something like a crime scene investigator or a forensic scientist/analyst.

3.)  A writer ;)  I fancy writing a book some day.  I'm sure a lot of people feel their life story is way more interesting than the person sitting next to them, but being I'm sitting by myself -- I think it's safe to say my life has been pretty crazy enough to write about [don't worry I'll change the names around so the world won't know your dirty little secrets lol]

4.)  A baker!  Totally random, but I like to bake.  I've noticed when I do bake I enjoy letting everyone else eat whatever I baked and me not eating any of it.  It's pretty satisfying to hear people say how much they enjoy it or request for more.

Sooo...  Am I random or what?  Option 1 and 2 are more TV based [haha - I watch way too much Netflix and Hulu]  I know not to believe everything I see on those shows, but it does spark my interest.

So what do you fancy?